The Most Embarrassing Part Yet...

Good morning lovelies.  I am so sorry that I haven't blogged in like, over 2 weeks.  I've had a bit of a personal situation arise and it has caused major stress and anxiety.  And unfortunately, along with that, has come a lot of emotional eating and NOT SO MUCH motivation.  I also woke up on my birthday (the day I was supposed to start this whole thing) with a horrible head cold and terrible sore throat.  And even tho I finally recovered from that a few days ago, I still haven't worked out.  So yeah- after a long talk with my best friend, I am back on track this morning.  She said something that I really needed to hear. *And you're pretty good at that, aren't you Alix ;)* "Come on dude, I know you've been sick, but walking is better than nothing.  This year is supposed to be your year."  And then, "That's understandable, the sick part for sure... but the stress- it's ALWAYS going to be a part of your life.  You have to start being that habit just like cigs.  And on the days when you fail u can either eat a bunch and be lazy, or eat a bunch and walk/run as much off as you can.  Even if you can't beat the eating, you can exercise every day for SURE."  Just the motivational words I needed to hear.  THANKS BESTIE BEST.  So yes, I have been in hiding for a couple weeks, but I am out now.  So today marks my official starting day.  I am really not comfortable with posting pics just in bra/underwear (even if I had a smokin' hot body that's just not for me) but I WILL share my weight now, something I've never done.  My starting weight, as of this morning, is 253 lbs.  Gah.  I can barely utter that number out loud.  Time to start making that number lower DAY by DAY by DAY.  My goal weight is 150 lbs.  And just a side note, even in high school as an athlete who cared about nothing but sports, I was solid rock muscle, and still weighed about 170.    I am saying this because I was in the best shape of my life and still weighed that.  So, I'm not sure if 150 is something that is even realistic for me.  I haven't weighed that since probably middle school.  Anyway- there you have it.  I just went public with my ginormous number.  253 lbs of sweet love LOL LOL LOL.  But today it starts falling off.  TODAY.  I am no longer trying to achieve huge goals in my life (not just this one) without God.  He is first.  No matter what, and I can't do this without letting him have control.  I am so blessed beyond words.  Let's DO THIS THING!